I never gave it much thought but that is where I am right now. Virtually alone in a house of four and although I feel like they are all plotting their next move I can’t let paranoia or suspicion haunt me. They will do what they do and I will keep my resentments at bay because it will serve no purpose but to exacerbate my life situation such as it is right now. My daughter in-law is pregnant much to the many tears of feeling sorry for herself that she would be barren. I hope that she learns that her self effacement is a true waste of emotion.
My stepson continues to be I guess the voice of reason and I am not sure he talks to me because he lives here in an economically conducive environment or he is truly cognizant unlike others that will remain nameless that I am doing my best in light of this family disintegration. More importantly I do this for my wife who is the only victim here. I know that by continuing to be the other aspects of my personality that have not changed will give her some peace of mind as she has much on her table with the health of her own daughter and the impending arrival of the next generation.
Purgatory does has it perks however so I know that no one is feeling sorry for me but this is no picnic.
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