My ex-wife is a mystic in my eyes. I met with her today and she gave me more than I ever gave her beside the heartache and pain. Here’s what she said. Are your habits stronger than your intention? And if this is the case (as I silently agreed in my head) then work on strengthening your will. The second precious stone was that: When in doubt cultivate the opposite view.
I can probably admit that ordinarily my intentions are good but often I am unconscious and my will takes over. My distorted behaviors that I produce wind up leaving people in pain and sometimes very angry. Now I know that this was not my intention but self will run riot precludes any good coming of what starts off as good intention and makes a mockery of my sobriety. Like my ex wife suggested I will go on and re examine how I can start to strengthen my will. There are a few thoughts I have in mind and just like my inner resolve that has kept me sober 22 years I can use that design for how I live out the rest of my born days.
The second piece I will have a field day with and I want to let it gestate for a day or two. There is more to be said about habits and intention and the link is one that I have never considered and I have to thank my ex-wife the mystic
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