Now that those that have judged me in their own special way without regard for anyone but their own ego satisfaction, I can go on with my personal journal. There is no doubt in my mind that I am a dog but this canine gave three siblings a home when theirs had disintegrated 13 years ago. I took them in at various stages of their lives and gave them shelter, food and a home base while they went on with their egocentric ride of personal development. At present maybe my heart feels regret and sorrow but it also feels a deep hostility as my “personal choices” have left me as the outlaw who stole their mother’s happiness that she never had until I showed up on the scene in 1998.
People in glass houses should not throw stones and now that I have been stoned in silence I will remind those that have thrown me under the bus that they best take a look at their own behavior before they take my inventory. Believe me I have taken my inventory and look around because mine is not the only judgment day they will be part of. I will have more to say on this topic soon.
Marrying a woman with three children and taking on the role of parent is admirable. However it takes maturity to see the value in your selfless act. Hopefully they will realize the toll it takes of anyone who becomes a parent. Raising another person's children is not a choice must of us would make. I say BRAVO for your part in it and so should they.
ReplyDeleteWell I said to my wife way back when that: I didn't sign up for this and she said Yes you did. I don't blame them for being angry with me but it just feels like I have sabotaged whatever good I think I may have done. My daughter in law yelled at me today. She has never done that and my anima is crying about that.
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