Have I made my life so complicated as if I added puzzle pieces that don’t belong in my mosaic? Am I caught up in a vortex that is just part of the weather patterns of the universe? Maybe it’s a test that I must navigate with the tools I have at hand.
What seems to be the most mystifying to me is that when I open my eyes I have a free-floating anxiety that I cannot define. Usually in the morning before office hours when if the issue did materialize I couldn’t act on it anyway. I guess the true test is in the light of day when these feelings dissipate that give me the true signal that all is as well as it can be. I also think guilt is a factor and that is something that has been ingrained into my psyche since childhood. It’s no ones fault I just have not learned how to let go and let God.
You are neither responsible for nor do you have control over anyone but yourself. There are too many threads that you have tried to weave together. The fabric of your life is becoming so loosely woven that it is a wonder that you can hang on to any part of it. The spiritual guides assigned to you have been working overtime. Let them do their job. Back off, relax. Peace
ReplyDeleteAgree...You only have power over yourself. Take a deep breath JB. Let life happen. You are stronger than you think and you have friends (who have become more like family) to support you when you need them. You are loved by many. Let go of that insecurity. Enjoy your new chapter... It's just beginning. Sending huge hugs your way!
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