What makes me think that by isolating that I can rediscover who I am? I do know that I need to awaken to the fact that there is a distinct difference between being alone and isolating. Alone time means that I am engaged in either disengaging like watching a favorite video, writing or just being in the somnolent state. Some people tell me that isolation is a deliberate form of hiding and avoiding either what needs to be faced or what needs to be done or a deliberate act of dropping off the grid. (I learned this expression recently dropping off the grid.) And I do that probably more than most people. But is isolation all that unhealthy?
Webster tells me that isolation is separation. Nowhere does it say that it is unhealthy. I like it mainly because I have to engage with people so regularly and for me isolation is a chance to catch up on my unconscious life.
I don't mind being alone I just don't want to end up being alone.
Perhaps isolation is just "time out". Is it a way of coping with the pressures of life? Many of our burdens are resolved during "time outs".
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ReplyDeleteIsolation of someone in recovery is separating from reality. Youblockut people, places and the things that you can't cope with. I see that you purposely avoid the people that love you...THAT is NOT normal. I think that your low self esteem and your fear of losing people due to death cause to to separate because the feelings that are created in these relationships scare you. This is an addict's coping mechanism to maintain their sobriety. Sometimes during isolation one may participate in other addictive behavior, maybe even behavior more socially acceptable. Perhaps this is your writing, exercising, marathon movie watching?