As I sit here and realize that I am in charge of many more aspects of my life than I think I can lay claim to I have to dispense with the idea that peoples emotions take precedence over what I need to do to maintain a sense of order in my life amidst the seeming molecular chaos that surrounds me like runaway electrons trying to find the right orbit to settle into.
My anima cripples me and puts me on pause too often when it is real time speed I need to let my life escape into. If I fail I fail but the zone of new discovery will always be an occluded sky if I don’t allow myself to falter and get singed. Sometimes it’s not only courage we need but also a departure from the familiar like today when I get pulled in directions that bring me comfort rather than experiment. I need a return to isolation just so that I can hear myself think rather than what others think I need or should or want to do. Not easy when you’re a sexagenarian because as I try to fool father time each day it is with the knowing that the end follows every story whether we have lived or we have chosen the easier softer way.
The truth is we do have free will but we need not make as many choices as you may think. Go with the flow my dear. Live and let live. The path will become clear if you let it . Trying to manipulate or direct God's plan can only end in failure. Let go and let God. We all are right where He wants us.
ReplyDeleteSounds like an excuse to isolate. Start living your new chapter!
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