It’s not that my old life was bad because it was the most enriching time of my life. And after getting sober being a step dad was my epiphany from the isolation of my own island. Coming from a larger family of five children I learned quickly how to withdraw and be vague especially with my father who was an unmerciful intimidator. Five children on a limited family budget made it seem like I had to be on the hunt for food everyday. Although I suspect this was part imagination as well. In any case I learned to be alone within the confines of a full house.
There were places that I came out from my obfuscation and they were my paternal grandfather and my eldest sister Carol. However I have gotten off my topic and on to a branch too far from my main point.
This new life might be an illusion or it might be something that was there in my old life but I chose not to see it was there. In any case I am busier than ever and I hope that my blended family will learn to accept my faults as we cohabitate in these tough economic times. I am just who I was before until I was discovered as not the man some wanted to believe I was. I always knew who I was even if those that loved me pretended they didn’t.
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