I have been both blessed and cursed having lived so many unlived lives. And just like I didn’t have just one career I have lived more than one life. I know that I have brought both pleasure and pain to yet another segment of my life as it now sorrowfully comes to a close. God Only Knows that I can choose to feel alone or be part of all the memories I have created. The ones with my sister Carol will live with me for the rest of my days as I head toward my own expiration date. The days of my blended family will stay with me as well because I gave four people a life or at least part of one.
When I listen to The Beach Boys the fondest days of my life are reenacted here in front of my keyboard. I often think how blessed I was to have gone in and out of so many of the lives I have touched for better or worse. And I want to give myself the benefit of any doubt that not all relationships that have ended badly meant that the whole experience was just a waste of time. I know in my heart that it was not and even those that to choose to see it otherwise, that still doesn’t make it so.
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