It was going along so great. Drinking caffeine not to excess mind you, eating more than my fair share of Easter chocolate and getting my 7 spins a week in.
Then yesterday I forgot my meds, and even though my intuition said bring that prescription bottle there may not be enough pills in the car, I ignored my own inner voice and wham my heart started to pound away and I wound up just living (fortunately) through it. I get too complacent and it’s a part of me that is just pure lackadaisical. There is no other word for it other than carelessness and frankly just taking my life too lightly and thinking I am invulnerable even though I am not saying that overtly it is what in fact I am implying.
Today I had to cancel my KSC for 8:30, which I think, is her best class but it was just not in the cards today. My theory about exercising through my ‘episode’ is pure madness, although there is still part of me that believes strenuous exercise is the answer for these ‘runaway’ charges inside my ticker. Two Bystolics and I am back on regular HR and hoping and wishing I can stay with my regimen without any more gaps.
Keep abusing your heart and see what happens. Believe me it isn't good.
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