I’m dreaming of a new me. I learned a lot this past year and found out that I cannot be controlled in any way shape or form. Not so much because I cannot conform quite the contrary I have conformed to many things but being kept from the things I love because a loved one thought they knew better than I even with good intention had to be let go. I did learn that I have to head towards center and check in with the word moderation because I just avoid that like the plague thinking that I have to do more all the time even when the age on my birth certificate says hold on there Baba Boy!
The new me will keep some of the habits I learned from my last love and that was more confidence, higher self-esteem, losing significant weight and even the bugaboo for most of my life I’ve stopped biting my nails. I still will sleep like a baby because my heart is true but the idea that I can obfuscate parts of my life so as to prevent people from seeing who I am will be no more. I know what I need and I am on that path now and I will write with the idea that I am to pleasure only me and not what others might like to hear and in so doing I will have those who identify with me rather than those that marvel at my words. I learned long ago when I wanted to do 2 hours 39 minutes in the Boston Marathon and run up the Empire State Building steps that by simply envisioning it happened. The new me will learn from the past and I know it’s never too late.
Bravo Jackie is surfacing. Moderation is not mediocre. Moderation is knowing your limitations and staying within the parameters.
ReplyDeleteMassaging the egos of anyone is not necessary. Most people know exactly who and what they are. Flattery is unnecessary. The truth always wins out.