These days I don’t lead with my brains or even my personality rather it’s the energy they tell me that I bring to my friends when they are in propinquity. Never had that experience before and it took coming to spin class to figure that out. I trust now that I don’t have to exercise mental dexterity or charisma to affect my friends in the most positive way. I thought it was purely my writing but writing has just given me the knock on the door that some have answered: Come in Jack!
Self-discovery at age 61 seems enigmatic to me but then there are those I suspect that will never be afforded the gift I have been given. I can’t lament about how old I am nor can I say: why now? All things come to those who wait and are willing to be patient. I was never patient and having to wait for anything brought me nothing but angst. My own experience of addiction, compulsion, obsession and impulsiveness have tortured me but now these afflictions have given me the acumen to know what happiness is and to truly understand how transient discomfort and pain really are.
"To those whom much is given much is expected". The talents you possess are the reasons people are drawn to you. Your innate abilities have brought you this far sometimes succeeding sometimes failing and so that is the natural concomitant of life. Just be who you are. You were made in His image and likeness and therefore you are just perfect
ReplyDeleteI hear this parochial theorem loud and clear and I still believe in it too.
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